@Grace Accepted so I take it this reply is your answer to my question concerning how you experience Christ. How lovely and telling of you.
This attitude shown in your words really busted up your strawman of my 'darkness and negativity' you created from nothing, and inferred it as part of my walk in Christ.
You do not know me at all, and your approach as it continues on will only reveal more about you that others. For some compulsive reason, you feel you have the right to interrogate. And then when you get any awkward resistance, you play Opossum. Well that is reality I'm afraid.
I would suggest you concentrated on the objective discussions at hand and bring about an edifying conversation rather that being obsessed about 'shaking down trees' and 'testing the spirits' as you said to me practically on day one. Not a great way to introduce yourself to a new member, aye.